What I'm A Sucker For...

There are many things that I enjoy and find satisfying. I’ll name a few that have been on my mind (as I’m listening to The Weeknd):

I’m a sucker for cuddling. Yes, I said cuddling. I went through a break up a few months ago. Even then, I didn’t really feel satisfied with him. I always wanted to cuddle with a guy who is willing to watch Netflix, eat pizza, talk about stupid shit, and take random selfies with me. Someone who I can have fun with and (if he is the right person) make sweet love to. Is that too much to ask for? I just love the feeling of someone holding me tight as we lay down on a rainy day. Him kissing me on my forehead, cheek, nose, and passionately on the lips as I rest my head on his chest. It really makes me feel fuzzy inside. Honestly, I think I may have found the guy who would do that, but I’m not sure if he knows that I want to. On second thought, I think he does. I low key want him to read this. Haha :P

I’m also a huge sucker for nostalgic things. If you take a good look at my iPod, there are all older songs. Songs that came out in the 2000s and even in the 90s and some 80s. There’s something about the beat of the music that reminds me of sweet memories of when I was a kid. Most of the songs I listened to as a kid was actually really inappropriate (uh hello... Petey Pablo’s Freek A Leek anyone? :P). Hahaha. I like reintroducing myself to these songs and discover what the hell the lyrics mean. I also like watching old cartoons I watched as a kid. For example, I was obsessed with The Powerpuff Girls when I was 6. Now, it is on Netflix and I can’t stop watching it! 

I know it’s kind of weird, but I love (and I mean absolutely love) watching LPs of old PS1, Sega Dreamcast, and N64 games on YouTube. And I watch it for fun! With this, I relive my childhood on my laptop. When ever I go to the King of Prussia Mall, I always go to a certain store (I think it’s called Jay Street?) that sells old video games and even have all of the old systems in display in the middle of the store. I just feel satisfied going in there and just remembering playing those games that are in display. Something that I always wanted was an orange N64 (the same one I had as a kid) with all the games I played like DK64, Super Mario 64, Mario Party, Mario Kart, Diddy Kong Racing, the Banjo Kazooie series, and many others I can’t remember.

That was a random post by me. Now going on with your day and stay awesome loves!

                                                                        - The Smilin’ Samurai <3

The poem that gets real

This is a poem about my emotions lately. Some may be surprised, some won't. Let me know what you think in the comments below:

Serious Post

I know I haven't been posting much lately because of school stuff, but this is actually something serious that I want to say.

My Bio (Part 4)

Right before my sophomore year, I received my very first job at the school bookstore. I felt so proud of myself. I had an opportunity to make my own money. I was independent for the first time. I loved it! I also extended my group of friends, including my friend Esther and this awesome guy named Ryan. Now, I don't recommend doing this if you want a boyfriend/girlfriend, but after weeks of knowing each other, we got together. Yeah, it was fast. Long story short, we made out at our friend's 21st birthday party.

My Bio (Part 3)

Meanwhile at school, history started repeating itself. The bullying started up again. People thinking I'm stupid, questioning my intelligence, and making fun of me for not being athletic. I didn't even fit in that well at that school. In fact, my senior year, we had a class of 34 (yeah, I know. It's pretty embarrassing). In the lobby, they had a collage of my classmates through the years. I wasn't even in one photo. Sad isn't it? Everyone there was exactly the same. Same views. Same interests. They were the stereotyped Christians. The school always shoved Christianity down our throats in everything we learned. That turned me off. With their attitudes towards me, I didn't feel welcome there. Now looking back, the school wasn't exactly for me. You don't know how many times I cried myself to sleep.

My Bio (Part 2)

Now, if you read some of my posts, I explained how much I despised this place. I'm going more into detail with this. At first, I liked it there. It was a little change to what I was used to. I was looking for the fights, but then I realized they don't tolerate fights at the school. During my first year there, I met a few great people like Sam, Adrienne, and Raina (who is now my roommate!) just to name a few. People were nice to me until the next year.

My Bio (Part 1)

I know that I haven't been posting since September because of my busy semester, but now I'm on winter break and have more time to write some more stuff. I've watched a lot of "Draw My Life" videos on YouTube and I was thinking, "Maybe I should do my own version of it. Instead of 'Draw My Life', I'll do 'Write My Life'". So without further ado, I will tell you about my life and what I went through for almost 21 years.